In November, I quit my job. I didn’t make a lot, but it was nice to have my own money. My leg and back pain were part of the problem, but I had also stretched myself thin with activities. That and marital issues caused a breakdown. I started seeing a wonderful therapist, where many triggers were discovered. My husband and I have had a tenuous relationship for a while, but it just snowballed into something worse. I contemplated suicide twice; one time, I was so scared that I tried to get admitted to a psych facility. Something happened there changed my mind, tho, and I very nearly ended up divorced because of actions made by my husband. Another night, a few weeks ago, I cut myself for the first time in my life. I got into group therapy, but was uncomfortable with that group, so I agreed to try Dialectical Behavior Therapy with my therapist. I signed my contract last Thursday and start on the 16th of September. I also suspect that I have Premenstrual dysphoric disorder, which exacerbated everything. And then I’ve had two total knee replacements; one on July 2nd, and the other on August 26th. I hope to undergo bariatric surgery this fall as well; I’ve chosen the sleeve. A lot has happened since November, and I’m just now getting a handle on all of it. I really hope to be back, and to being ME, soon!